Few days ago a person asked me about a chart. It was not his, someone elses. Asking about it he asked when will the person die? I was taken aback. The chart clearly showed a horribly placed lagnesh plus 8th place had no consoliditary planet. So am I supposed to tell him that person will die early? What do ethics of astrology tell? Is the relevance to rules laid down 2000 years ago intact?
Well if you decide "not to predict death", will it be a cheating? I mean for professionals people pay them, at this stage witholding important information like this, isnt this cheating? Right now I have the excuse of "I am learning", I mean if I predict to someone an early death, and then learn something new then? Am I supposed to "revise" his death timing or what? Isnt this very close to godliness? When you "revise" a persons death time. So death predictions are out of question for me. Still I have been taught how to check out age and life expectancy so some yogs cannot miss the eye. As one learns Jyotish eyes are trained to spot the "knot". At such times I have to lie and not tell correctly what I saw.
My Astrology teacher(He is quite aged about 78) talked candidly with us. He told how these "lies" and manipulations can affect the Jyotish's life itself. He said it creates a "burden of knowledge", knowledge when witheld is a burden for the witholder. Such knowledge cripples mental peace and calmness of person.
Right now I may be safe behind the "learner" tag, but some day it will be gone. Then what am I going to do? Tell truth to save myself the "burden" or witheld the truth for sake of "ethics"?
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Growing up
A very old saying goes "What doesn't change dies". If not changing is attributed to a future death, changing must be attributed to life. So is change a sign of life? Or really does a change signify a health, a sense of living etc?
Recently I have changed a lot. I have become more patient and a lot less arguing. Earlier I used to fight for hours upon absolutely useless things, immaterial ones. Nowadays even important things cant force me to take up arms. I am a LOT less possessive and very much less caring also.
Is this good? Am I becoming calm or do I no longer care. The later situation is very bad because when I don't care for something, I really don't....that is the end then. At this stage I want to be a little optimistic and believe that I am becoming in generality calm and composed. Then the most frightening thought strikes my head. "Am I growing up?" :O. Till now I have always behaved like an overgrown kid and got away with that, but all of sudden I am loosing interest in many things which I had much many before. Can a person just "grow" in months?
Astrologically I just started a complete new antardasha, from Rahu-Rahu to Rahu-Guru. The planet of maturity and oldness Guru, is this the reason I am suddenly behaving like a calm composed person. Most weird thing is, I can see myself reacting differently. Like today I was in a situation where I would have flared up and created a huge hullabablaboo, but I did 1/20th of what I would have originally done. And while I was reacting like this, I was actually feeling myself changed. It was a very very weird feeling. It is like when only one of your foot gets wet.
You want more, you want water on the other foot but you cannot, its like that. I wanted to be more angry and more aggressive BUT...nothing..it was as if the taps of angers went dry and there is a drought of aggression.
Another thing is, I should be happy that I am more calm and not fast reacting, but I am not. I feel weird when I don't get angry. I feel like its not me. I know this is because of habit. Even parrots in cages love their cages and prefer them to open skies. I hope I realise the right time to leave the cage.
I never imagined that change of antardasha can bring about such drastic changes in me. For years people used to say to me "grow up", "learn to make decisions", "learn to take responsibility"..........Is it time to do it all? Has Jupiter decided that I shed the skin of child and become a man now? Scary it may be but if it is time I must do it. Because to live one must change. In coming time it will become clear what is expected of me now. Whether the time has finally come to "GROW UP"........for once and for all.........
Embedding song from my very favorite series "Brothers and sisters"..."Easier to lie"....
Even I feel the same, its easier to lie to myself, that nothing is changing stick to the past I had.
Everyone knows the shouldnt lie, but many still do....because it is much easier to lie...
Recently I have changed a lot. I have become more patient and a lot less arguing. Earlier I used to fight for hours upon absolutely useless things, immaterial ones. Nowadays even important things cant force me to take up arms. I am a LOT less possessive and very much less caring also.
Is this good? Am I becoming calm or do I no longer care. The later situation is very bad because when I don't care for something, I really don't....that is the end then. At this stage I want to be a little optimistic and believe that I am becoming in generality calm and composed. Then the most frightening thought strikes my head. "Am I growing up?" :O. Till now I have always behaved like an overgrown kid and got away with that, but all of sudden I am loosing interest in many things which I had much many before. Can a person just "grow" in months?
Astrologically I just started a complete new antardasha, from Rahu-Rahu to Rahu-Guru. The planet of maturity and oldness Guru, is this the reason I am suddenly behaving like a calm composed person. Most weird thing is, I can see myself reacting differently. Like today I was in a situation where I would have flared up and created a huge hullabablaboo, but I did 1/20th of what I would have originally done. And while I was reacting like this, I was actually feeling myself changed. It was a very very weird feeling. It is like when only one of your foot gets wet.
You want more, you want water on the other foot but you cannot, its like that. I wanted to be more angry and more aggressive BUT...nothing..it was as if the taps of angers went dry and there is a drought of aggression.
Another thing is, I should be happy that I am more calm and not fast reacting, but I am not. I feel weird when I don't get angry. I feel like its not me. I know this is because of habit. Even parrots in cages love their cages and prefer them to open skies. I hope I realise the right time to leave the cage.
I never imagined that change of antardasha can bring about such drastic changes in me. For years people used to say to me "grow up", "learn to make decisions", "learn to take responsibility"..........Is it time to do it all? Has Jupiter decided that I shed the skin of child and become a man now? Scary it may be but if it is time I must do it. Because to live one must change. In coming time it will become clear what is expected of me now. Whether the time has finally come to "GROW UP"........for once and for all.........
Embedding song from my very favorite series "Brothers and sisters"..."Easier to lie"....
Even I feel the same, its easier to lie to myself, that nothing is changing stick to the past I had.
Everyone knows the shouldnt lie, but many still do....because it is much easier to lie...
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Year.....
I just realised that one entire year will be completed for the blog. I started blogging around 20th April last year. I just cant believe that...................... Complete year gone. Time flies like a cheetah running for a snack or rather more aptly the Thomsons Gazelle which runs with his life dangling between life and death. I started blogging just because I wanted to "write" and feel like a writer. I like writing and have a long lost dream of being a Journalist. Well I certainly cant call it "long lost", recently one of my friend left his well paid IT job and training to pursue a journalist job which paid him half. So who knows if I try really hard I could end up being one, heheeh but then again will I try that hard?? hehehe
So was talking about the blog and the love for writing. In the past year..hmm lets see. Jupiter changed sign, I changed from Rahu-Rahu to Rahu-Guru and Saturn finally decided to say bye bye to sinha and is his way out of the pompous sign. So many changes but I feel like that nothing has. It is like feeling like just few days passed, actually when the world changes. Great is the human power to adjust, we adjust to so many things without actually knowing that we do :O
Song by ABBA...nice one...
So was talking about the blog and the love for writing. In the past year..hmm lets see. Jupiter changed sign, I changed from Rahu-Rahu to Rahu-Guru and Saturn finally decided to say bye bye to sinha and is his way out of the pompous sign. So many changes but I feel like that nothing has. It is like feeling like just few days passed, actually when the world changes. Great is the human power to adjust, we adjust to so many things without actually knowing that we do :O
Song by ABBA...nice one...
Friday, April 10, 2009
Angels,Demons...or just FATE??
I was thinking about writing this for quite a long time but like all things my incredibly lazy attribute has procrastinates it like anything. What I want to write is a bit weird, it is bit paranormal. I somehow feel like I have something in life which puts a cushion in between me and hardships. Well this has happened so many times that it has lost the typical "coincidence" explanation right. It just cannot be explained.
I ll divulge more details here now. Actually examples would make it easy. I am very sad these days due to some universities rejecting my application. Still every time I get a tad bit more sad something comes up. Something that just lifts my mood up like a wind lifting a fallen bird feather.
Its like I never make any major decisions in my life, they are just made automatically for me and almost every sad thing has a reason which surfaces later.
Example:- The choice to learn astrology was not mine. I never set out of house to become an astrologer. My mother heard about the astro class and wanted to join it. So she sent me to collect forms for her. The result, she never attended that rather I went in astrology. It is very weird that a subject I have so so so much interest is just "happen" to be put on my plate when I had the least palette for it. Is a person destined to become someone/be somewhere/do something which he/she cannot avoid?
There are many more situations which bear witness to "fate" at work. Second most blaring is German. I just joined German for "Time pass" because one of my friend joined it. Later he dropped out and I am near the completion of my second level. Again last week after I got a major rejection I was very sad and down and wanted to meet an astrology acquaintance but she didn't have time. Later as the week progressed I became more and more blue and all of sudden she calls me and invites me over. There again she showed me in so many ways the occurrence that I am just convinced. That totally removed my sorrow and induced a new vigour in me to work ahead.
Long time ago when I was 12 my grandmother used to tell me that I am a reincarnation of her father-in-law who died a very long time ago. I was like "ohohoho" and that would be made a joke into. Last Saturday when a very knowledgeable jyotish told me the same thing then my ears went up like a rabbit. I have long heard of ancestors helping family members and jyotish is filled with such fables. But when something unfathomable happens it calls for the mind to look to more alternatives other than plain old "coincidence". There are just too too many coincidences.
So what is it? Angels? Demons? Ancestors? Fate? or even the thought just slipped into my mind
G-D??
I don't know, but one day I will, that may be the day I die but one day I sure will.
Song from Jewel thief I like it very much..though not related to this talk..
I ll divulge more details here now. Actually examples would make it easy. I am very sad these days due to some universities rejecting my application. Still every time I get a tad bit more sad something comes up. Something that just lifts my mood up like a wind lifting a fallen bird feather.
Its like I never make any major decisions in my life, they are just made automatically for me and almost every sad thing has a reason which surfaces later.
Example:- The choice to learn astrology was not mine. I never set out of house to become an astrologer. My mother heard about the astro class and wanted to join it. So she sent me to collect forms for her. The result, she never attended that rather I went in astrology. It is very weird that a subject I have so so so much interest is just "happen" to be put on my plate when I had the least palette for it. Is a person destined to become someone/be somewhere/do something which he/she cannot avoid?
There are many more situations which bear witness to "fate" at work. Second most blaring is German. I just joined German for "Time pass" because one of my friend joined it. Later he dropped out and I am near the completion of my second level. Again last week after I got a major rejection I was very sad and down and wanted to meet an astrology acquaintance but she didn't have time. Later as the week progressed I became more and more blue and all of sudden she calls me and invites me over. There again she showed me in so many ways the occurrence that I am just convinced. That totally removed my sorrow and induced a new vigour in me to work ahead.
Long time ago when I was 12 my grandmother used to tell me that I am a reincarnation of her father-in-law who died a very long time ago. I was like "ohohoho" and that would be made a joke into. Last Saturday when a very knowledgeable jyotish told me the same thing then my ears went up like a rabbit. I have long heard of ancestors helping family members and jyotish is filled with such fables. But when something unfathomable happens it calls for the mind to look to more alternatives other than plain old "coincidence". There are just too too many coincidences.
So what is it? Angels? Demons? Ancestors? Fate? or even the thought just slipped into my mind
G-D??
I don't know, but one day I will, that may be the day I die but one day I sure will.
Song from Jewel thief I like it very much..though not related to this talk..
Saturday, March 28, 2009
My kind of Day
Today really I had something called "my kind of day". A day filled with weird uncertainty yet ending with fun and good time in all. These kinds of days are the ones which I love the most.
Early morning I got call from a friend in German class, she wanted to do Hausaufgabe(Homework) together. I really liked that idea since I rarely do it in first place. She fixed afternoon as meeting time. Sensing I had time in evening I called up my couple friends and fixed an appointment to meet them. My German friend also is a friend of couple so it was 4 of us.
In afternoon the place is not decided we meet at general place. There she came up with a weird idea of doing homework on a HILLTOP. Yeah that too in blazing heat of 4' o clock. So much so that I write it negatively the real truth is I like weird ideas to the core. Its just refreshing and downright fun, I love it. So off we go on hill to do homework. We actually started doing it, then got bored and started skipping it heheh in no time we had either finished or finished skipping all of the homework heheheh.
Then came down and met the couple. I was meeting the gf in that for first time. By reactions of others I suppose she was not herself today. Anyway I don't make opinions and biases in single meetings. We ll meet again over times and then I ll get to form one. We ate and talked and talked about jyotish too. That actually improves the conversation a lot otherwise it was leaning to boredom a lot. The parting note was quite okay...as the bard famously said "Alls well that ends well". Shakespeare is god for me heheh.
Then got a late night(not that late actually) by the friend(the bf) in the couple. We talked about how we found the day and etc etc. Then schluss.....I am sitting here now.
It is these kinds of days that I earn for. These days that make a person feel his inner joy and enjoy the very existence of living. After all that's what really matters.......
If you love to live as you are, you got to know you are living a good life. I think right now this second frozen in time I am. I may or may not in future, but this bubble will always make me realise that I have had it. It is both therapeutic and consoling, this is what I am thinking as the "The my kind of day" passes by to become a part of memory attached to many people places and actions. Passes to become a part of few things that make you smile when remembered.
This is song for myself, I like it very much and I dont care if anybody doesnt hehehe
Atleast not today...
Early morning I got call from a friend in German class, she wanted to do Hausaufgabe(Homework) together. I really liked that idea since I rarely do it in first place. She fixed afternoon as meeting time. Sensing I had time in evening I called up my couple friends and fixed an appointment to meet them. My German friend also is a friend of couple so it was 4 of us.
In afternoon the place is not decided we meet at general place. There she came up with a weird idea of doing homework on a HILLTOP. Yeah that too in blazing heat of 4' o clock. So much so that I write it negatively the real truth is I like weird ideas to the core. Its just refreshing and downright fun, I love it. So off we go on hill to do homework. We actually started doing it, then got bored and started skipping it heheh in no time we had either finished or finished skipping all of the homework heheheh.
Then came down and met the couple. I was meeting the gf in that for first time. By reactions of others I suppose she was not herself today. Anyway I don't make opinions and biases in single meetings. We ll meet again over times and then I ll get to form one. We ate and talked and talked about jyotish too. That actually improves the conversation a lot otherwise it was leaning to boredom a lot. The parting note was quite okay...as the bard famously said "Alls well that ends well". Shakespeare is god for me heheh.
Then got a late night(not that late actually) by the friend(the bf) in the couple. We talked about how we found the day and etc etc. Then schluss.....I am sitting here now.
It is these kinds of days that I earn for. These days that make a person feel his inner joy and enjoy the very existence of living. After all that's what really matters.......
If you love to live as you are, you got to know you are living a good life. I think right now this second frozen in time I am. I may or may not in future, but this bubble will always make me realise that I have had it. It is both therapeutic and consoling, this is what I am thinking as the "The my kind of day" passes by to become a part of memory attached to many people places and actions. Passes to become a part of few things that make you smile when remembered.
This is song for myself, I like it very much and I dont care if anybody doesnt hehehe
Atleast not today...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Nice day
Suddenly I feel like being a daily blogger again, so writing dont know how much more time this feeling will remain though heheh.
Hmm nowadays I have early morning german classes, its not that early actually its 8:30. So got up early and went there. We had a replacement teacher while our original is busy with some seminar. Huh replacement ine was much better than our original. Actually our teacher is a bitch. I just hate her. She is an egoistic, self absorbed and extremely impatient teacher. During my A1 I had such nice teachers that made me interested in german and I enrolled for A2. but with current one I just dont see myself going for next level. She has destroyed whatever interest I had. One day we spent 4 hours correcting homework, horrible 4 hours. At the end I was nearly asleep. When I was absent(not purposely) few of my co-students went to the director of the institute to complain about her. I so wish I was one of them. huh...
She is so particular about pronounciation that she creates a hullabablaboo if we pronounce the word incorrectly. Okay we need to be proper in pronounciation no sweat. We have few malayalam nuns and priests in our class too. They have the most catastrophic pronounciations one has ever heard, but does she correct and insult them?? Nope. Now what to make of this differential treatment. Yes I said insult correct, every correction of her's is close to an insult.
hmm enough about my teacher from hell. I hope the deutscher Directkor changes her, and assigns a more understanding and friendly teacher to us.
So the day was not normal because of our replacement teacher was very nice we had fun there.
Enjoyed and learned, the way it should be. Then returned home and followed my normal routine.
Eat-sleep-internet. hehehe.
Right now in the course of next cycle..with sleep.heheh,not so early though.
Bye cyu later..
aufweidersehen....
Hmm nowadays I have early morning german classes, its not that early actually its 8:30. So got up early and went there. We had a replacement teacher while our original is busy with some seminar. Huh replacement ine was much better than our original. Actually our teacher is a bitch. I just hate her. She is an egoistic, self absorbed and extremely impatient teacher. During my A1 I had such nice teachers that made me interested in german and I enrolled for A2. but with current one I just dont see myself going for next level. She has destroyed whatever interest I had. One day we spent 4 hours correcting homework, horrible 4 hours. At the end I was nearly asleep. When I was absent(not purposely) few of my co-students went to the director of the institute to complain about her. I so wish I was one of them. huh...
She is so particular about pronounciation that she creates a hullabablaboo if we pronounce the word incorrectly. Okay we need to be proper in pronounciation no sweat. We have few malayalam nuns and priests in our class too. They have the most catastrophic pronounciations one has ever heard, but does she correct and insult them?? Nope. Now what to make of this differential treatment. Yes I said insult correct, every correction of her's is close to an insult.
hmm enough about my teacher from hell. I hope the deutscher Directkor changes her, and assigns a more understanding and friendly teacher to us.
So the day was not normal because of our replacement teacher was very nice we had fun there.
Enjoyed and learned, the way it should be. Then returned home and followed my normal routine.
Eat-sleep-internet. hehehe.
Right now in the course of next cycle..with sleep.heheh,not so early though.
Bye cyu later..
aufweidersehen....
Monday, March 23, 2009
Love actually "is" there...
Trust me I have been the greatest critic of the said "true love" but I shed the skin. Yes finally I do accept that it is there. Two people can just "love" each other no-strings-attached. Now don't jump to conclusions that I have found someone(Saturn are you hearing? enough I think). This is about a friend and this is real friend, not the kind of friend we see in "sex help columns", I mean he is real not an Albie for me.
It will be quite a year since he told a girl his feelings, and now she accepted him and quite well. I asked his gf "What is it like to be in a relationship?" and guess what her reply was "I am always happy", just that. Now that is the most amazing example of what is called "love". And you know what? I am happy heheh. I may sound little weird as to why "I" should be happy? Well it is simple I see one of my close friend happy and I am happy. I know many people will be rolling their eyes(especially ones who know me) I am sorry to disappoint you there are no "buts" here.
I have managed to surprise myself beyond parallel, I never knew I could be so happy for some other person but I am heheh.
We have been through a lot, together and alone taking that into account this is the most wonderful thing I have done for him and for myself too. I haven't seen them together till now but will see them soon I guess. He doesn't show it but he loves his gf like a person loves his heartbeats.(and yeah I have to express it for him because he cant :P). Love is in the hot march air I suppose, and it is rubbing everyone with its fragrance. It is the raindrop that blesses the spot it drops on sure, but it also bounces off into a thousand small droplets that bless many other spots in near vicinity. I happen to have the fortune of that benediction love spreads.
I don't know whether I ll ever receive direct raindrops by "love courier service" but till then I am more than joyful to have the secondhand ones.
I feel happy that finally he got what he deserves and I am also happy that I have not even a hint of green in it. The latter doubles the mirth prior bestows because finally I can categorise myself as a "good human being" one who is genuinely happy for others.This may sound like a selfish thing to say especially since I am writing about a couple..but then
Whose blog are you reading?? Hello??. heheh
I would really really really give a song to the new couple. Its "kuch to hua hain" from Kal ho....It really says what a person must be feeling when he/she is in love. People in love do tell me whether its true or not.
Now dont get me wrong, I m not saying people dance on streets and do stupid things, but do they wish to do them? There lies the answer :). They may not do what song shows, but if they want to do that, then I think the song has served its purpose well
Well till now I was not sure I wanted to be in love(or rather does such thing exists), but after I experience the "bounced droplets"..I want to say "Bring on the rain Baby":)
It will be quite a year since he told a girl his feelings, and now she accepted him and quite well. I asked his gf "What is it like to be in a relationship?" and guess what her reply was "I am always happy", just that. Now that is the most amazing example of what is called "love". And you know what? I am happy heheh. I may sound little weird as to why "I" should be happy? Well it is simple I see one of my close friend happy and I am happy. I know many people will be rolling their eyes(especially ones who know me) I am sorry to disappoint you there are no "buts" here.
I have managed to surprise myself beyond parallel, I never knew I could be so happy for some other person but I am heheh.
We have been through a lot, together and alone taking that into account this is the most wonderful thing I have done for him and for myself too. I haven't seen them together till now but will see them soon I guess. He doesn't show it but he loves his gf like a person loves his heartbeats.(and yeah I have to express it for him because he cant :P). Love is in the hot march air I suppose, and it is rubbing everyone with its fragrance. It is the raindrop that blesses the spot it drops on sure, but it also bounces off into a thousand small droplets that bless many other spots in near vicinity. I happen to have the fortune of that benediction love spreads.
I don't know whether I ll ever receive direct raindrops by "love courier service" but till then I am more than joyful to have the secondhand ones.
I feel happy that finally he got what he deserves and I am also happy that I have not even a hint of green in it. The latter doubles the mirth prior bestows because finally I can categorise myself as a "good human being" one who is genuinely happy for others.This may sound like a selfish thing to say especially since I am writing about a couple..but then
Whose blog are you reading?? Hello??. heheh
I would really really really give a song to the new couple. Its "kuch to hua hain" from Kal ho....It really says what a person must be feeling when he/she is in love. People in love do tell me whether its true or not.
Now dont get me wrong, I m not saying people dance on streets and do stupid things, but do they wish to do them? There lies the answer :). They may not do what song shows, but if they want to do that, then I think the song has served its purpose well
Well till now I was not sure I wanted to be in love(or rather does such thing exists), but after I experience the "bounced droplets"..I want to say "Bring on the rain Baby":)
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