Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Changes..

Few weeks ago I wrote about how I was seriously was, "no strings attached" happy for someone else. Next in line I wrote about how I was unusually calm and composed in most aggression invoking scenarios. Today I wrote how change has affected me in another quadrant.
I have seemed to lost the bad attribute of "worrying" and "caring". Yes I was overtly worried about what my actions/words do to other people. This was to the extent that used to try to undo the harm by apologising or trying to allay the situation. Now I just don't care..:-).
Maybe another of Jupiter's changes(Still trying to gauge how I have changed, its very difficult to perceive yourself changing) but this one I open with open arms. I really need a break from the over emotional nature I had. Words are like arrows once they leave the bow there is little one can do. So whats the point in worrying and getting all upset by them.
As I have lost the care what my words do to others I seem to lost the action others does to me as well. I care very little about what people say to me nowadays. Its not that I have become a total ascetic or something. What I am writing is a drastic drop in intensity of the emotions I used to feel. The anger, the affinity, the care, the envy, the sorrow everything has suddenly dropped and and the effect is that I am very quiet and silent these days. But this quiescence is not sad it is the reflection of the peace of mind I have these days.
Hmm was hearing a really nice Marathi poems the other day, one line seems to refuse to leave my brain.
This is by Suresh Bhat I dont know the whole song but this line is very touching.....

Tula bhetatil majhe, tujhya ghari sur olakhiche
ubha tujya aagani swarancha abol ha parijaat aahe
(You will meet a lot of my tunes in your house; Standing in your courtyard is a silent tree of tunes)

3 comments:

Disha said...

Well the song goes as thus...
Sunya sunya maifilit mazhyaaa
Tuzecha mee geet gaat aahee
Ajunahi vaatate malaki
Ajunahi chaandaraata aahee...
Sunyaa....

Kalena meee paahate kunaala
Kalenaa ha chehara kunaacha
punhapunha bhaas hot aahe
Tuze hasu aarashaat aahee...
Sunyaa....

Sakhyaaa tula bhetateel maze
Tuzhyaaa ghari surrrr olaakhicheee
Ubha tuzyaaa angani swaraanchaaa
abolahaa paarijaat aaheeeee...
Sunyaa......

Ugich swapnaat saaawalyaanchi
kashaaasa kelis aasave tuuu
dilesa kaaa prem tu kunaaala
Tuzyaaachaje antaraat aahee..
Sunyaa.....
- Suresh Bhat.
U liked some lines read d entire poem it will haunt u for days...
Enjoy..

Vibhav said...

This is a fantastic poem....

The emotions the poet wants to portray are just so clear and unblemished.

Masterpiece.

Disha said...

Tisaryaa kadavyaat-
Ugich swapnaat saawalyaanchi
Kashaasa kelis aarjave tu.... aasave nahi to shabd aarjave aahe.Mi aadhi chukicha lihilay.
Tech mhanat hote arth kaa lagat nahi, aataa barobar arth laaglaa tyaa olinchaa....