Today really I had something called "my kind of day". A day filled with weird uncertainty yet ending with fun and good time in all. These kinds of days are the ones which I love the most.
Early morning I got call from a friend in German class, she wanted to do Hausaufgabe(Homework) together. I really liked that idea since I rarely do it in first place. She fixed afternoon as meeting time. Sensing I had time in evening I called up my couple friends and fixed an appointment to meet them. My German friend also is a friend of couple so it was 4 of us.
In afternoon the place is not decided we meet at general place. There she came up with a weird idea of doing homework on a HILLTOP. Yeah that too in blazing heat of 4' o clock. So much so that I write it negatively the real truth is I like weird ideas to the core. Its just refreshing and downright fun, I love it. So off we go on hill to do homework. We actually started doing it, then got bored and started skipping it heheh in no time we had either finished or finished skipping all of the homework heheheh.
Then came down and met the couple. I was meeting the gf in that for first time. By reactions of others I suppose she was not herself today. Anyway I don't make opinions and biases in single meetings. We ll meet again over times and then I ll get to form one. We ate and talked and talked about jyotish too. That actually improves the conversation a lot otherwise it was leaning to boredom a lot. The parting note was quite okay...as the bard famously said "Alls well that ends well". Shakespeare is god for me heheh.
Then got a late night(not that late actually) by the friend(the bf) in the couple. We talked about how we found the day and etc etc. Then schluss.....I am sitting here now.
It is these kinds of days that I earn for. These days that make a person feel his inner joy and enjoy the very existence of living. After all that's what really matters.......
If you love to live as you are, you got to know you are living a good life. I think right now this second frozen in time I am. I may or may not in future, but this bubble will always make me realise that I have had it. It is both therapeutic and consoling, this is what I am thinking as the "The my kind of day" passes by to become a part of memory attached to many people places and actions. Passes to become a part of few things that make you smile when remembered.
This is song for myself, I like it very much and I dont care if anybody doesnt hehehe
Atleast not today...
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Nice day
Suddenly I feel like being a daily blogger again, so writing dont know how much more time this feeling will remain though heheh.
Hmm nowadays I have early morning german classes, its not that early actually its 8:30. So got up early and went there. We had a replacement teacher while our original is busy with some seminar. Huh replacement ine was much better than our original. Actually our teacher is a bitch. I just hate her. She is an egoistic, self absorbed and extremely impatient teacher. During my A1 I had such nice teachers that made me interested in german and I enrolled for A2. but with current one I just dont see myself going for next level. She has destroyed whatever interest I had. One day we spent 4 hours correcting homework, horrible 4 hours. At the end I was nearly asleep. When I was absent(not purposely) few of my co-students went to the director of the institute to complain about her. I so wish I was one of them. huh...
She is so particular about pronounciation that she creates a hullabablaboo if we pronounce the word incorrectly. Okay we need to be proper in pronounciation no sweat. We have few malayalam nuns and priests in our class too. They have the most catastrophic pronounciations one has ever heard, but does she correct and insult them?? Nope. Now what to make of this differential treatment. Yes I said insult correct, every correction of her's is close to an insult.
hmm enough about my teacher from hell. I hope the deutscher Directkor changes her, and assigns a more understanding and friendly teacher to us.
So the day was not normal because of our replacement teacher was very nice we had fun there.
Enjoyed and learned, the way it should be. Then returned home and followed my normal routine.
Eat-sleep-internet. hehehe.
Right now in the course of next cycle..with sleep.heheh,not so early though.
Bye cyu later..
aufweidersehen....
Hmm nowadays I have early morning german classes, its not that early actually its 8:30. So got up early and went there. We had a replacement teacher while our original is busy with some seminar. Huh replacement ine was much better than our original. Actually our teacher is a bitch. I just hate her. She is an egoistic, self absorbed and extremely impatient teacher. During my A1 I had such nice teachers that made me interested in german and I enrolled for A2. but with current one I just dont see myself going for next level. She has destroyed whatever interest I had. One day we spent 4 hours correcting homework, horrible 4 hours. At the end I was nearly asleep. When I was absent(not purposely) few of my co-students went to the director of the institute to complain about her. I so wish I was one of them. huh...
She is so particular about pronounciation that she creates a hullabablaboo if we pronounce the word incorrectly. Okay we need to be proper in pronounciation no sweat. We have few malayalam nuns and priests in our class too. They have the most catastrophic pronounciations one has ever heard, but does she correct and insult them?? Nope. Now what to make of this differential treatment. Yes I said insult correct, every correction of her's is close to an insult.
hmm enough about my teacher from hell. I hope the deutscher Directkor changes her, and assigns a more understanding and friendly teacher to us.
So the day was not normal because of our replacement teacher was very nice we had fun there.
Enjoyed and learned, the way it should be. Then returned home and followed my normal routine.
Eat-sleep-internet. hehehe.
Right now in the course of next cycle..with sleep.heheh,not so early though.
Bye cyu later..
aufweidersehen....
Monday, March 23, 2009
Love actually "is" there...
Trust me I have been the greatest critic of the said "true love" but I shed the skin. Yes finally I do accept that it is there. Two people can just "love" each other no-strings-attached. Now don't jump to conclusions that I have found someone(Saturn are you hearing? enough I think). This is about a friend and this is real friend, not the kind of friend we see in "sex help columns", I mean he is real not an Albie for me.
It will be quite a year since he told a girl his feelings, and now she accepted him and quite well. I asked his gf "What is it like to be in a relationship?" and guess what her reply was "I am always happy", just that. Now that is the most amazing example of what is called "love". And you know what? I am happy heheh. I may sound little weird as to why "I" should be happy? Well it is simple I see one of my close friend happy and I am happy. I know many people will be rolling their eyes(especially ones who know me) I am sorry to disappoint you there are no "buts" here.
I have managed to surprise myself beyond parallel, I never knew I could be so happy for some other person but I am heheh.
We have been through a lot, together and alone taking that into account this is the most wonderful thing I have done for him and for myself too. I haven't seen them together till now but will see them soon I guess. He doesn't show it but he loves his gf like a person loves his heartbeats.(and yeah I have to express it for him because he cant :P). Love is in the hot march air I suppose, and it is rubbing everyone with its fragrance. It is the raindrop that blesses the spot it drops on sure, but it also bounces off into a thousand small droplets that bless many other spots in near vicinity. I happen to have the fortune of that benediction love spreads.
I don't know whether I ll ever receive direct raindrops by "love courier service" but till then I am more than joyful to have the secondhand ones.
I feel happy that finally he got what he deserves and I am also happy that I have not even a hint of green in it. The latter doubles the mirth prior bestows because finally I can categorise myself as a "good human being" one who is genuinely happy for others.This may sound like a selfish thing to say especially since I am writing about a couple..but then
Whose blog are you reading?? Hello??. heheh
I would really really really give a song to the new couple. Its "kuch to hua hain" from Kal ho....It really says what a person must be feeling when he/she is in love. People in love do tell me whether its true or not.
Now dont get me wrong, I m not saying people dance on streets and do stupid things, but do they wish to do them? There lies the answer :). They may not do what song shows, but if they want to do that, then I think the song has served its purpose well
Well till now I was not sure I wanted to be in love(or rather does such thing exists), but after I experience the "bounced droplets"..I want to say "Bring on the rain Baby":)
It will be quite a year since he told a girl his feelings, and now she accepted him and quite well. I asked his gf "What is it like to be in a relationship?" and guess what her reply was "I am always happy", just that. Now that is the most amazing example of what is called "love". And you know what? I am happy heheh. I may sound little weird as to why "I" should be happy? Well it is simple I see one of my close friend happy and I am happy. I know many people will be rolling their eyes(especially ones who know me) I am sorry to disappoint you there are no "buts" here.
I have managed to surprise myself beyond parallel, I never knew I could be so happy for some other person but I am heheh.
We have been through a lot, together and alone taking that into account this is the most wonderful thing I have done for him and for myself too. I haven't seen them together till now but will see them soon I guess. He doesn't show it but he loves his gf like a person loves his heartbeats.(and yeah I have to express it for him because he cant :P). Love is in the hot march air I suppose, and it is rubbing everyone with its fragrance. It is the raindrop that blesses the spot it drops on sure, but it also bounces off into a thousand small droplets that bless many other spots in near vicinity. I happen to have the fortune of that benediction love spreads.
I don't know whether I ll ever receive direct raindrops by "love courier service" but till then I am more than joyful to have the secondhand ones.
I feel happy that finally he got what he deserves and I am also happy that I have not even a hint of green in it. The latter doubles the mirth prior bestows because finally I can categorise myself as a "good human being" one who is genuinely happy for others.This may sound like a selfish thing to say especially since I am writing about a couple..but then
Whose blog are you reading?? Hello??. heheh
I would really really really give a song to the new couple. Its "kuch to hua hain" from Kal ho....It really says what a person must be feeling when he/she is in love. People in love do tell me whether its true or not.
Now dont get me wrong, I m not saying people dance on streets and do stupid things, but do they wish to do them? There lies the answer :). They may not do what song shows, but if they want to do that, then I think the song has served its purpose well
Well till now I was not sure I wanted to be in love(or rather does such thing exists), but after I experience the "bounced droplets"..I want to say "Bring on the rain Baby":)
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Does everything has a reason?
Okay let me first tell you the story that caused me to think on this unusual topic..
I have been ill for 2 days because of which I missed by German class yesterday. I generally have my class at 1:30 pm everyday. So yesterday teacher told that she was going to take important things in extra time at 12:30 pm. A friend even called me in morning but I was busy and didn't receive that call. Later I had some work in University so I started from home at 11 am. My plan was:-Reach university by 11:45..do work which will take up 1 hour at least. That will make it 12:45 then go to my class by 1 pm for my 1 :30 lecture. Oblivious to the time change I went to university. What I say, all departments are closed. duhh, this is second time I am seeing a closed offices. I was angry and frustrated and stomping my feet. I was so agitated that police officers guarding university looked at me weirdly as I was stomping my way through the campus. No they didn't stop me, actually no police or security ever stops me, weird na? But its true I manage to get into confidential areas just like that hehe. Anyway then I decide that as I have time to spend I ll sit in canteen and spend some time. So I go in canteen, what I see? HUGE crowd, the usually deserted canteen is full and many Bangladeshi refugees are gobbling food like they saw it after decades. Again I was angry, stomping my feet walked towards parking.
Then while walking I realised that all this time I am not wearing my "Hijab" hehe. Well I have a ugly wind cheater and huge hanker chief to cover my face(from sun and pollution). I call it hijab borrowed from Muslim context, but actually it serves the purpose well. It manages to divert attention from me. Without my hijab if I were to walk I am a center of uncalled for male/female attention and I hate the starings. You may think its good being looked at but trust me its NOT.
Okay so all this time 50 people are staring at me. Its a horrible day nothing can be more horrible than this. I just decide to go to my class and wait for it to start.
I go to my class, reach it by 12:30 and whoa I am on time :) What can you call this? Everything has a reason it just takes time to show :)
I have been ill for 2 days because of which I missed by German class yesterday. I generally have my class at 1:30 pm everyday. So yesterday teacher told that she was going to take important things in extra time at 12:30 pm. A friend even called me in morning but I was busy and didn't receive that call. Later I had some work in University so I started from home at 11 am. My plan was:-Reach university by 11:45..do work which will take up 1 hour at least. That will make it 12:45 then go to my class by 1 pm for my 1 :30 lecture. Oblivious to the time change I went to university. What I say, all departments are closed. duhh, this is second time I am seeing a closed offices. I was angry and frustrated and stomping my feet. I was so agitated that police officers guarding university looked at me weirdly as I was stomping my way through the campus. No they didn't stop me, actually no police or security ever stops me, weird na? But its true I manage to get into confidential areas just like that hehe. Anyway then I decide that as I have time to spend I ll sit in canteen and spend some time. So I go in canteen, what I see? HUGE crowd, the usually deserted canteen is full and many Bangladeshi refugees are gobbling food like they saw it after decades. Again I was angry, stomping my feet walked towards parking.
Then while walking I realised that all this time I am not wearing my "Hijab" hehe. Well I have a ugly wind cheater and huge hanker chief to cover my face(from sun and pollution). I call it hijab borrowed from Muslim context, but actually it serves the purpose well. It manages to divert attention from me. Without my hijab if I were to walk I am a center of uncalled for male/female attention and I hate the starings. You may think its good being looked at but trust me its NOT.
Okay so all this time 50 people are staring at me. Its a horrible day nothing can be more horrible than this. I just decide to go to my class and wait for it to start.
I go to my class, reach it by 12:30 and whoa I am on time :) What can you call this? Everything has a reason it just takes time to show :)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Retrospection
January ends as it started. Time flies faster than a hawk chasing a prey. And what am I doing?? Actually nothing. There is an uncomfortable status quo in my life. Don't know how or why but things are just not working. I am having important work but its getting postponed and not by my laziness but rather due to circumstances. When will these circumstances give way to more light?
I wait as master Saturn turns his wheels for me. Its always been this way I have to wait for the road to clear up.
Anyway even the winter seems to have eluded me this time. Its just not cold, actually its not hot either but I remember last year this time I was shivering in cold at 6 30 am everyday(I had tuition's). This year nothing. I also remember what I was doing in January of 2007--04. Aah 2004, the best year of my life I must say. It was not complete though. If a complete year has to be good I guess 2003 takes the prize on account of how much fun I had then. 2004 began with a rather extrapolated version of 2003. I had friends, a great dream, a great position in class, great academics. I had all that is important at 17. Then down came the ceiling, as the year progressed it turned around and bit me like a crazy bitch. Suddenly the fun finished, friends went their own(better than mine) ways, academics vanished into thin air, position slipped so low that it was unimaginable. I fought to regain it, I refused to accept that all is over. I refused to accept that I no longer was the center of attraction. Living in painful denial dropped my interest in what I had in my hand(something I repent). The crown had fallen, monarchy uprooted, kingdom annexed.
Incidentally why had this happened? Well simple explanation is given by astrology sade saati duhh what do you expect in it?? More introspection revealed the hidden cause. The real cause is a silent asleep pride which I had then. I bore the punishment for the pride I had and this reformed me a lot.
Then the years passed and I grew more comfortable with my new fraction-of-first fun life. slowly I recovered still the past haunted me for many a times till I learnt to bury it in the dark chambers of mind. Slowly I made new friends and build up a new world for myself. It was nothing compared to the lost kingdom but a house to own I must say. Normality followed and a sense of security too. Now I am perfectly happy in my own new world. Still sometimes I look back and see the days when everything was perfect.....the days of January 2004..
A very nice song with a very nice meaning
I have much now but i need much more if I were to have what I once had...
Thoda hain thode ki zaroorat hain
I wait as master Saturn turns his wheels for me. Its always been this way I have to wait for the road to clear up.
Anyway even the winter seems to have eluded me this time. Its just not cold, actually its not hot either but I remember last year this time I was shivering in cold at 6 30 am everyday(I had tuition's). This year nothing. I also remember what I was doing in January of 2007--04. Aah 2004, the best year of my life I must say. It was not complete though. If a complete year has to be good I guess 2003 takes the prize on account of how much fun I had then. 2004 began with a rather extrapolated version of 2003. I had friends, a great dream, a great position in class, great academics. I had all that is important at 17. Then down came the ceiling, as the year progressed it turned around and bit me like a crazy bitch. Suddenly the fun finished, friends went their own(better than mine) ways, academics vanished into thin air, position slipped so low that it was unimaginable. I fought to regain it, I refused to accept that all is over. I refused to accept that I no longer was the center of attraction. Living in painful denial dropped my interest in what I had in my hand(something I repent). The crown had fallen, monarchy uprooted, kingdom annexed.
Incidentally why had this happened? Well simple explanation is given by astrology sade saati duhh what do you expect in it?? More introspection revealed the hidden cause. The real cause is a silent asleep pride which I had then. I bore the punishment for the pride I had and this reformed me a lot.
Then the years passed and I grew more comfortable with my new fraction-of-first fun life. slowly I recovered still the past haunted me for many a times till I learnt to bury it in the dark chambers of mind. Slowly I made new friends and build up a new world for myself. It was nothing compared to the lost kingdom but a house to own I must say. Normality followed and a sense of security too. Now I am perfectly happy in my own new world. Still sometimes I look back and see the days when everything was perfect.....the days of January 2004..
A very nice song with a very nice meaning
I have much now but i need much more if I were to have what I once had...
Thoda hain thode ki zaroorat hain
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Privacy or shelling
Firstly something about my meeting with Karun. It went fantastic.Karun is as he portrays on Internet. Exactly, just I imagined him 10kgs lighter hehehe.
Just now I was talking to a friend about her blog which I have started reading. She told me she didn't want many people to read her blog and that was reason she didn't advertise her blog. Is she yearning for privacy or is this an action of shelling oneself. I know that we all need privacy we all have to keep certain things strictly to ourselves, I don't contest that at all. What I am saying is that where the line of privacy seeking nature end and that of self protective wall building nature begin? Can it be found out? ever?
I mean if you take the pains of expressing your thoughts through a medium, is it a need of privacy to keep those hidden? Then why write it in first place? I know all cannot be intended for all audience, but then we can always choose how much to reveal to whom...
I have always made the mistake of shelling myself under the false veil of privacy. Something I regret many a times. This false veil is the biggest chicanery one can do to oneself. The moment you try to restrict access you create a barrier that deceives you, the barrier projects a screen a mirage of security when in fact it is preventing the mind from opening up new frontiers.
I recall a very famous dialogue from television serial "Andromeda". The situation is like captain person meets a very odd alien and talks to him, and while talking the weird alien alludes at the presence of many more weird alien species, the captain contradicts the weird alien...then he says..
"Captain, you claim to be an explorer?? Then open your mind to new possibilities"
Same way everyone has to open up his/her mind to new things, far from being held up in old shells of false security, try new frontiers. Who knows this may be the same thing you were searching for? Give up the false sense of privacy, privacy is essential indeed but it should not stop a person from being free and independent.
A very relevant song for occasion, here the song talks about the hesitance about love, but its the same about anything in life.
Here is Mitwa..
Teri nigaahen, paa gayi raheinpar tu yeh soche jaaun na jaaunyeh
zindagi jo hai naachti tohkyon bediyon mein hai tere paanv
preet ki dhun par naach le paaga ludta agar hai udne de aanchal
kaahe koi apne ko aaise tarsaaye jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni woh baat kya hai bata
Just now I was talking to a friend about her blog which I have started reading. She told me she didn't want many people to read her blog and that was reason she didn't advertise her blog. Is she yearning for privacy or is this an action of shelling oneself. I know that we all need privacy we all have to keep certain things strictly to ourselves, I don't contest that at all. What I am saying is that where the line of privacy seeking nature end and that of self protective wall building nature begin? Can it be found out? ever?
I mean if you take the pains of expressing your thoughts through a medium, is it a need of privacy to keep those hidden? Then why write it in first place? I know all cannot be intended for all audience, but then we can always choose how much to reveal to whom...
I have always made the mistake of shelling myself under the false veil of privacy. Something I regret many a times. This false veil is the biggest chicanery one can do to oneself. The moment you try to restrict access you create a barrier that deceives you, the barrier projects a screen a mirage of security when in fact it is preventing the mind from opening up new frontiers.
I recall a very famous dialogue from television serial "Andromeda". The situation is like captain person meets a very odd alien and talks to him, and while talking the weird alien alludes at the presence of many more weird alien species, the captain contradicts the weird alien...then he says..
"Captain, you claim to be an explorer?? Then open your mind to new possibilities"
Same way everyone has to open up his/her mind to new things, far from being held up in old shells of false security, try new frontiers. Who knows this may be the same thing you were searching for? Give up the false sense of privacy, privacy is essential indeed but it should not stop a person from being free and independent.
A very relevant song for occasion, here the song talks about the hesitance about love, but its the same about anything in life.
Here is Mitwa..
Teri nigaahen, paa gayi raheinpar tu yeh soche jaaun na jaaunyeh
zindagi jo hai naachti tohkyon bediyon mein hai tere paanv
preet ki dhun par naach le paaga ludta agar hai udne de aanchal
kaahe koi apne ko aaise tarsaaye jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni woh baat kya hai bata
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Long time no see
Well I am back to my daily blogs, looks like it though. So day started with my sudden decision to cut my hair. I of sudden I thought that I hate long hair(long in my context is 2inches). So got up at 9 am and rode away to barbers shop to just finish of all hair. After the order I gave to finish it off, I was left with a very unique customised haircut I call "Cactus cut". When your hair is so short that it stands up like a cactus thorn then the cut is called a "cactus cut". So I now sport cactus cut, heheheh.
hmm so went to german class, after the class I was scheduled to meet my friend, I have mentioned him before. He is A lives in Europe came for vacations. So we went back to our most frequented spot, felt nice to chat again. For few minutes I forgot he lived in europe........
hmm but reality is the bitch which never fails to bite. It was nice time, loved it. I am trying to squeeze in another meeting before he goes back to europe. Lets see I hope we can manage...
Another news...I am meeting Karun in person tomorrow. He has come to pune, actually shirdi but will stop over pune to meet me. So will write about this first of kind experience. How does it feels to meet someone who whom you already know very well but never met? A decade ago such sentence would be called as stupid, but internet has done it.
So what happend tomorrow will write it there..
Till then aufweidersen..gute nacht
hmm so went to german class, after the class I was scheduled to meet my friend, I have mentioned him before. He is A lives in Europe came for vacations. So we went back to our most frequented spot, felt nice to chat again. For few minutes I forgot he lived in europe........
hmm but reality is the bitch which never fails to bite. It was nice time, loved it. I am trying to squeeze in another meeting before he goes back to europe. Lets see I hope we can manage...
Another news...I am meeting Karun in person tomorrow. He has come to pune, actually shirdi but will stop over pune to meet me. So will write about this first of kind experience. How does it feels to meet someone who whom you already know very well but never met? A decade ago such sentence would be called as stupid, but internet has done it.
So what happend tomorrow will write it there..
Till then aufweidersen..gute nacht
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